Revolve

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Revolve.

Let it revolve and don’t ignore,

            That this time is simply to mourn.

                         I am still in hell and I won’t return,

                                    Until I decide that I have had enough

                                    Of the sorrow that has consumed my soul.

I shook,

I trembled,

I stared at the wall.

In a dream I saw it all fall.

In a dream I knew that it was all gone.

Now I bang my head against the wall

Knowing what I could have done to change,

But recognizing that I did not have the strength to do so then.

The imperfect reckoning of knowing where you went perfectly wrong

And how to make it better tomorrow, will give you the peace to move on.

In my shoes you will walk,

But I promise that I will not let you fall.

I went through this to better my soul and to teach you

That you will tumble, but that I will be there to hold you in hell, while

You think that you’ll never see the light of your own soul again. Don’t cry, my love.

When you walk in these shoes, I’ll have been in mine for long.

                                                I promise that the pain does not last long.

                                                            I promise that this is where we belong.

Remember to tell your heart that this is how you learn, and try to be gentle to                                                                             yourself.

You will not walk in these shoes on your own.

©2012 Cassandra Huidobro