Out of Pride
A broken promise,
just one promise.
The one thing you said you’d never do,
you did.
Nothing really should’ve happened,
I could’ve just held you and said
that all people make mistakes.
Instead, I treated you like a traitor
and inconsistencies of my brain
took over my voice,
and I found myself spiteful and
out of control,
And tried to teach you a lesson
by holding my eyes closed
pleading that you leave our home.
Ashamed and crying, and without
consolation, I knew your eyes
tried to make contact with my gaze,
and, unsuccessful,
You walked out our door.
What have I done?
And fear set in.
And a weight fell on my chest.
And I was shocked at myself.
And instead of chasing you,
I didn’t call you
just to teach you a lesson.
But all I wanted to do is
get off my high horse and
bring you back home.
But my pride didn’t let me go
and my feet felt stuck,
and I stayed put.
And I tried to convince myself in those few seconds,
that maybe freedom would be best.
But I know, I just know
I should’ve chased you
and forgiven this ridiculous fault.
I’m not perfect and I should’ve known,
that freedom from you would forever
shackle me to the eternal wall
that my mind explores
wondering
why I let you go.
And my soul morose knows
that there’ll be no more nights of us
looking up at the stars.
Because I made the biggest mistake of my life so far.
Something I thought it’d be for granted
Now I yield to someone else.
Out of pride.
Out of pride.
©2014 Cassandra Huidobro
